"With every end comes a new beginning"
Dear Mummy,
It s 2008. I have to keep reminding myself that another year has come...that every second I am getting older and nearer to you.
Sorry for forgetting you sometimes, and that I only remember you when I needed someone. It s very selfish of me. But you are always in my heart. ok? Pls dun be angry, k? I love you and I will always do.
Recently I have been to an overseas mission trip. It was great! I have learned alot and grew a lot, and hopefully I can have the willpower to make a positive change in my life now. The kids are so innocent and adorable, with a heart so pure. Compared to them, I realized I have become so much complicated, no longer the simple me. I guess complication is much needed for survival in such a complicated world.
Such a simple world there has made me want to keep the simplicity of myself with me no matter what. And truly simplicity is happiness. Contentment is joy. It s the little things that count. Being alive is joy, being able to experience all these is joy, even it may not always be good.
I tell myself that there s always a positive side, no matter how bad things may be. I may be strong but I also need someone by my side. My always "act" strong side has told me, I have failed miserably. I am a human being, not a saint...
The stronger you seem to be, the weaker you may actually seem to be...and it s ok, really to lean on someone sometimes as long as you are willing to reach out..I know someone will be most willing to be there..and from this trip, I have found the courage to do just so...thank you my dear friend for being there with me without judging me.
"The strongest person is the person who knows when to ask for help."
And it s really all in the mind. The past doesnt matter, the future is not here. Why dwell on the unnecessary and miss the most important time NOW. This is really something which I must work hard towards. Whatever will come will be truly stands now as long as you are true to yourself and those around you.
Life has a way of compensating those who have lost something or someone somehow or other.
It always balances out.
Love is illogical. Love is irrational. Love is unconditional. Love is happiness.
Searching for happiness illogically irrationally unconditionally in the new year, a new start, a new beginning.
I know you are waiting for me just out there..every second I am walking nearer to you.
Love you always,
Agnes
P.S: Mummy, give me the strength to stay true to my heart. The power to make the change and the difference. The wisdom to love and give. And one last thing, I wanna tell Daddy that I really love him and for all that he has done for me. No words can describe it. Hugzx.
