The True Meaning of Love

"The true meaning of love is not to possess but to let go...."

-Agnes-

Dear Mummy,

Ever since you have left me, there is a question that keep bugging me. Everyday I search for an answer but all I get is silence.How I wish I could see you again, touch you just once more and to ask you..... "How are you now??"

I guess you would most probably be much better off in heaven than on earth as there would be no suffering. Seeing in pain hurts me so much that somehow I am glad you have been relieved of the pain.I realized that the true meaning of love is really not to possess you but to let you go...to a better place.

"I love you", these three words are definitely not easy to say it out, especially coming from me but I am glad that I did say those three words out before you left.I wondered if you have heard me. But somehow I know you knew even if I did not say them out as my actions have said it all.

Love as I have discovered, is the most sincere through touch.Such physical affection conquers all. I would always remember the little squeezing of our hands when you are in bed, my gentle stroke of your forehead,my little act of closing your slightly opened right eyelid, and my goodnight hug to you.

Whereas, your love is shown through your silent endurance.You did not want us to worry and so you took on the mighty task of enduring the pain and fear of the disease alone.You left us so soon because you do not want to be a burden to me and daddy.And I know the reason behind all these is due to your love for us.

However, I had to disagree with your way of showing your love.Keeping silent is by far not a good way of showing your love. Communication is. Love is kept alive through communication, be it verbally or non-verbally.Do you know that it hurts me badly everytime I know that early detection for your disease is guaranteed an almost 100 percent cure? The words, " if only I knew earlier" haunt me everyday.

But, mummy, please do not misunderstand me. I do not mean to blame you for I know the reason you kept silent.I just want to let the rest know that if you have a problem, please do not keep it to yourself. Share with those you love and trust. I am pretty sure they would want to know what s bothering you. Trust me, being able to share the problems of your loved one is definitely one of the greatest joy. Please do not wait till it s too late. Time waits for nobody. But love conquers all.

And so my friends, what s the true meaning of love for you?

Missing you so very much,

Agnes